feELing of the day_loneliness and confusion

song_single for the rest of my life_isyss

ish da 2nd...w0oho0 day after nu yearz! more like nu tearz!! errg...im still confused..iono who to l0ve ne more nd i feEL so l0nely cuzza dat..i juss wanna be wit *him,* but den i d0nt f0e s0me reas0n..in the past hez hurt mE s0o0 much but n0w it seemz like im willing t0 fergive him even if he duznt kn0e h0w he hurt meE..hez happened to hurt a l0t 0f pe0ple..a l l  f 0 r  a n  i m p 0 s s i b l e d r e a m. . . he d0esnt seem t0 get dat he has t0 m0ve 0n...but he duznt wanna cuz hez s0o in l0ve..datz whut he thinkz..but i think dat isz juss puppy l0ve..hez f0rcing himself t0 like her s0 much..dayutz juss whut i think th0..hez kina dillusional..y0o kn0e...wellz...herez h0w maii day went:

10:45-w0ke up; watched tv foe a l0ng time but i0n0 h0w l0ng; 4:30-t0ok sh0wer; n0w im just 0nline.. itz 5.22 at the moment..h0w are y0o? hehe..

i still want a l0t f0e christmas..herrez whut i want..

HELLA STUFF from sanrio; jeanz from express, the gap, `nd old navy, shirtz from limited t0o..AND MORE!!

feELing of today_c0nfusi0n`nd SaDneSs
song_miss you_aaLiyah
today ish uhHhH NeW yEaRz EvE..aint dat kewL? yup fa shizzetyz...hehe...wellz....hmMmM..i dono wazz gon happen t0nigt since izz maii m0mz ch0ice...i wana g0 t0 maii auntie sylz h0use but like i sed ish maii m0mz ch0ice...ne waez he fEeLing of  todae izh c0nfusi0n....iono why...nd sadness cuz iono if ima hav ne thing to do on new yearz...sad huh? i think im c0nfused cuz im g0in crazy 0va whut t0 d0 wit maii l0ve life if yo0 can call it wun...cuz im aLL l0nely righh now.y0o knoe...i like dish guy but den i d0n think he sharez maii feELingz.. i kina led him 0n t0 believe dat i like sahmbuhdee elsh.. but da frenship iz da same styll....y0o knoe y0o kn0e..wellz ne way i g0t dis from maii cuzzinz frenz site...
«-·´¯`·[ · dont ever fall in love · ]·´¯`·-»
have yu ever fallen in love
but knew they didnt care?
have yu ever felt like crying
but knew yu'd get no where?
have yu ever watched them walk away...
not wanting them to go?
en whispered `i love you´ softly...
not wanting them to knoe?
yu cried all night in misery
en almost went insane
theres nothing in this world
that causes so much pain
if i could choose between love en death
i think i'd rather die
love is fun, but it hurts too much
so i say, dont fall in love
yu'll beh hurt before its thru
yu see mai friend, i ought tah knoe
i fell in love with yu
and dis t0o...
once upon a time there was an island where all the feelings lived; Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all the others, including Love.

one day it was announced to all of the feelings that the island was going to sink to the bottom of the ocean. so all the feelings prepared their boats to leave.

Love was the only one that stayed. she wanted to preserve the island paradise until the last possible moment.

when the island was almost totally under, Love decided it was time to leave.

she began looking for someone to ask for help. just then Richness was passing by in a grand boat. Love asked, "Richness, can I come with you on your boat?"

Richness answered, " i'm sorrie, but there is a lot of silver en gold on mai boat en there would be no room for yu anywhere."

then Love decided to ask Vanity for help who was passing in a beautiful vessel. Love cried out, "Vanity, help! meh please." "i can't help you", Vanity said, " yu are all wet en will damage mai beautiful boat."

next, Love saw Sadness passing by. Love said, "Sadness, please let me go with yu."

Sadness answered, "Love, i'm sorry, but, i just need to be alone now."

then, Love saw Happiness. Love cried out, "Happiness, please take me with yu." But Happiness was so overjoyed that he didn't hear Love calling to him.

Love began to cry. then, she heard a voice say, "come Love, i will take yu with meh." Ii was an elder. Love felt so blessed en overjoyed that she forgot to ask the elder his name. when they arrived on land, the elder went on his way. Love realized how much she owed the elder.

Love then found Knowledge en asked, "who was it that helped me?" "it was Time", Knowledge answered. "but why did time help me when no one else would?" Love asked.

Knowledge smiled en with deep wisdom en sincerity, answered, "because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."

quote of the day_maii onlee fear is comin bakk reincarnated...y0o come bakk to lye as a new pers0n..buh your old mind is still there..i am a rose that grew from concrete_tupac

12/30/02

the fEELing of today is boredem..not really able ta do ne thing taday...yesterday wuz okae tho0..i went to stonestown wit maii parents and.........but of course... maii brother...blehhh......i wanted maii otha brother ta go..and now him...really..wellz ne waez i got a shirt from limited to0..its like a turtle neck thang wid sparkley shittz...den i went to sanrio nd bought nikki, kae kae, nd mizzy der "after christmas giftz.." hehe...weLLz...yeahhhhh... oh yeah den we went to burger king nd ate...yup.. christmas wuz boring...maii mom didnt wanna get off her ass...ya knoe... so we stayed home foe awhile which i hate to do den we went to maii auntie sylz place nd didnt eat much..but christmas eve wuz fun...i went to maii grandmaz nd ate yummeh fo0d..herrez whut i got foe christmas so far...

.grandma n grandpa.-eeyore night shirt nd 20 bux

.ating.-purse and 20 bux

.ateh trish.-purse

.auntie mom.-20 bux

.auntie citas nd uncle moi.-25 bukz

.auntie liza.-20 bukz

.kuya kenn.-30 bukz

.auntie syl.-40 bukz

.uncle yeng.-40 bukz

.auntie gel.-blanket

.paOLo nd ateh jane.-25 bukz

dehtz about it..i think im fergettinz shittz but oh well..

tonight wuz okae..better den todae...but yeahhh.. i went to roud table wid maii brotherz..yummeh pizza nd ro0t bEEr foe mE..Hee2...i got some stickerz from dat vending machine..nd yeahhh..iono where ima ima stiq dem yet..ehehe....righh now im watchin rocket power on nick...hehehe..i ishuh wearing maii new pantz..kewL huH ??? heheh..der from express...i nEEd to buy more pants...i lub jeans....hehehe..weLL gotz ta bounce naw...paysh!